I've been told it's good to write things down. I guess a way to look back on things.

I'm glad it's break. I'm glad for this weekend. Our concert went well. My performances went well. Just being there with good friends enjoying good times. God is good.

I'm just sad when it comes to her. I mean, I have been seeing her a lot lately. And yeah we do fall into traps, but we realized that we're not doing right. And yeah. Even though I miss the kissing, and all the other corny stuff, I guess now's just not the time. I can't risk going behind your parents' backs if I truly love you. I can't risk you lying to go places if I truly love you. I just have to wait until they trust me I guess.

Our relationship or whatever you want to call it went good recently. We were both happy, we were both "falling in love all over again". But then I realized I can't have you lying to your parents about us hanging out, as much as I loved seeing you, so we had to put hanging out and having our small dates off.

You came by our concert today which was cool. But you weren't so happy. You kept saying it's cause you're on your period, but you were like super irritated. I was fine with that, I still enjoyed being with you. You enjoyed yourself for a bit, and for a little bit, we enjoyed ourselves hanging out for a bit at the concert.

But you start linking your arms with other guys. I know you're just being nice, but sometimes other guys think you're being flirty or "out there". I'm not really jealous, I really just want you to act better around guys I guess. But I can't change you. Only you through God can.

And I decide to tell you that that upsetted me. You said you were sorry. I tried walking you to your car. But I just stopped mid-walk and said bye, half because your sister was making it awkward. And I didn't even hug you. After all the times I've shown affection towards you, I didn't give you a hug goodbye. We just separated our paths in the rain. And I guess I was hurt. I dunno, didn't feel too good about that happening.

I texted you, but yeah I'm guessing you fell asleep. I wish we could talk.

Man this sounds like an arbitrary guy/girl problem blog. I guess what I can only do right now is just depend on God, as I always should. Cause even if people are prone to fail you, God won't.

"Nice seeing you yesterday too.. :) i love you so much, you know that? Like i told Danica.. With you I fall in love over and over again. That's a good thing.. Well I'm on the way school now. Have a good day Timmy. Take care." - Jennifer Bugarin