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God

Please give me your words when I speak to him. And show me not to argue.

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Snowflake.

Sorry.

I regret saying that it's lame. Cause it's not. I know you care, but you don't worry. That's what I think, which is a good thing, not to worry. I hope your school, and financial stuff goes well..

Nevertheless, I will be praying, on the real, since life is going to change for you in the upcoming future. But it's in His hands.

Life is good. Thanks God. Although I still have my roadblocks and trials, life is good. I feel like typing all this out, here are my current thoughts.

December, my favorite month. Spirit of Christmas. I hope to get more clothes, haha.

Friday, I typed up my research paper, at my cousins house. Dang a 10 page research paper, talk about productiveness.

Saturday, I went with Christian, Karl, Larry, Ronnel, Jay, and Kuya Marlon to Burning Bush in SD. The message was about fulfilling the goals that God gives to you. Saw Michelle after not seeing her in a while, met some new peeps from that church, Kuya Matt is a win worship leader, he should have an album already. Afterwards, we went to SDSU to pick up Marygrace from AB Samahan. It's so hype, haha. Then just went home from there.

Today, I went to Morning Service, had an LOL meeting about 3 major upcoming events in December, all of which I'm super looking forward to. Ate Chinese afterwards.

Convoy of Hope, December 12. Half of us, including me, will be staying in SD the night before, because of the rally, and we get our T-Shirts and stuff. This is a very great event, 2nd year I've done this with LOL. Ghetto families, broke peeps, homeless come to this park to receive groceries, haircuts, clothes, but leave the park a saved person. Lives really become changed from this.. and I'm happy to participate in this, cause this event is just for God. I'm probably bagging groceries.

Youth re-gift exchange party, December 17. Every year, the Thursday before Christmas, the youth brings a thing or two they don't want (e.g clothes, video games, board games) and wraps it as a gift. Everyone who comes to the exchange raffles for a gift of their choice, but all the gifts are wrapped, so they don't know what it is. The beauty of it is that you can "steal" other people's gift instead of pick out a gift. That's where the competitiveness kicks in. Funny thing is there's been a dartboard that's been re-gifted for like the last 3 years of youth re-gift exchange party. Nobody wants it, haha.

Turn Up the Volume, December 27. Last sunday of the year, around evening. Basically a concert to end off the year with a bang, everything to the glory of God. Performances, worship, stuff, everything. I think I'm managing the tickets in this one. Man, gotta promote this event like crazy, we want the 150 capacity place filled. Lost souls will be found, and welcomed.

More business coming up lately, with grades pulling in and a grip of events coming up, I need to get that A on my AP Calc Exam on tuesday. My grade is like an 88.7, hopefully my test can bring it up. This time we get to use graphing calculators, and this could be an advantage, or a disadvantage, depending on your abilities with a graphing calculator.

Same with AP Psych, gotta raise my 88 to an A by doing good on a the next chapter test with like 90+ questions.

Disneyland next wednesday, UCSD field trip thursday, I get to miss school for 2 days! Yee. The only downside is getting caught up with my AP classes..

I've been having a gross cough the past week, it's still present.

I've been reading Rurouni Kenshin. I watched some of it when I was younger.. I would watch the anime, but it starts sucking around like episode 64 to the end, cause it doesn't follow the manga from thereon.

I haven't been bboying as much during the past week, besides the occasional time in dance, although I have a couple of new things up my sleeve.

Hey, it's nice to know the feedback of people saying that we took things maturely.

Time to work on AP US.

Practice Points

- Maintain and clean toprock, incorperate more dancing, keep doing what the music says.
- Clean footwork, expand footwork techs.
- Get UFO's and Headswipes.
- Drill sets/freestyle for stamina/cypher practice.

I almost forgot..

11/10 and 11/15.. last year..

Movie Poster Project, Photoshop hates my face.

To:

The future guy who ends up with her. If.. or if it isn't.. me.

Dear _______,

Hi there. Um, I see you take an interest in this girl. I'm happy for you, to me, she was the best person I have met in my entire life. I've had a previous "relationship", you could say, with that girl.

And yeah, it has taught me so much, she was the one that boosted my relationship with God. When I met her, she was on fire for God. When I met her, she had recently broken up with her previous boyfriend. Well, not really, because I had met her before that, but I haven't "met" met her until the 10th of November 2008. The day I snuck in with John to Vista, and talked to her cause I saw her at REVO. I knew what she did every single day from the 10th of November 2008, to this day, 3rd November 2009.

When I met this girl at REVO, I thought she was "out of my league," just cause she was super outgoing. I felt like she was cool, and I wasn't. But.. I got to know much more about her. And I still am..

I've been through a lot with her, for almost a year now. If it's God's will to do so, then there is much more that we are going to go through. I'm happy that you met her, really.

First of all, if you're considering that you're mature about being in a relationship with her, I advise you, think again. Are you a saved person? Is Jesus Christ your Lord and savior? Are you willing to put God first, before her? It's more than a matter of saying, yeah. And I must admit, I failed, cause I ran to her before God at times..

Are you willing to love her unconditionally? No matter what? The way God tells us to love one another?

Always be grateful when you're with her, when you talk to her, when you see her. Because those opportunities are limited, make the most of it.

Put away your lustful desires when you see her. She's a beautiful woman, which makes you even luckier, but lust is just a temporary pleasure. Let love be your ultimate goal.

Write her notes, she likes them. Make sure they're long, with good quality.

Play Pokemon with her. Haha.

Talk to her at night, but only if she absolutely can. And don't sleep deprive her, plan when you'll talk to her. Do not get her in trouble. If you do these things, that's a sign of love.

When you do talk to her, be kind. Gentle. Patient. Not every conversation is one that goes your way, and don't be selfish and argue. I fell short of this at times too. But I recall talking to her, and I remember the feeling when you know that she is smiling, even when you cannot see her.

Sometimes, she easily falls asleep when you're on the phone with her. That's fine, she needs sleep. Don't get mad, but instead, ask if she would like to fall asleep on the phone. When she does, tell her that you love her, only when you really mean it.

Love her, unconditionally. When she gives a lot to you. When she pays attention to you. When she smiles at the sight of you. When she offers a gift, or a favor.

Love her, unconditionally. When she's confused. When she doesn't pay attention to you. When something's bothering her. When she's arguing, or upset with you.

Do not abuse the kissing card. It'll lead you to your youthful desires, wanting to do more than just kiss. Avoid that, if you really do care for her. When you do kiss her, be sure to let you know that this leaves her heart vulnerable, because she's sharing it with you through a kiss. Don't take advantage of that.

Buy her a Yoshi doll, but only when she's allowed to have one.

Be her best friend. When she needs someone to vent to, be there. Don't be impatient, or "bored" with what she has to say.

Take AP US History just because of her (not really), and help her throughout the year, not distract her and bring her grade down.

Ask her how her day was. She's not always going to ask how yours was, but ask her anyways. This shows your efforts for her.

Share bible verses with her, that you took interest in. She will too. Encourage her to dig into God's Word, and she will too.

Read the books, I Kissed Dating Goodbye, and Boy Meets Girl.

Pray for her, every night. With sincerity, not routinely.

God will give you so much opportunities with this girl.

It's your choice on what to do with them.

I hope that you decide well, out of love for her.

Always trust and obey God first. Wherever God plants you, listen to him, and grow there. Even if that requires letting go of her.

There's much more I have to say, but I'm of limited time. And I can't put it all in words right now. But yeah, I hope you love her unconditionally, it's easier said than done. Seek God if you don't know how. And the rest will be given to you. (:

- Tim

I don't completely realize

if you're mad at me or not.. But I'm sorry.. For bringing her up and stuff. I just thought I didn't want to hide things from her. My intentions are just to be friendly, just with everyone else.. No other intention. No "getting at her" or anything of the sort.

But yeah, what I don't understand is.. I trust you, when you're consistently talking to guys, or when you're not. Especially during the times when it was hard for me to trust you. I won't bring up the past. Cause you're a changing person for Him. (:

I trust you.. to keep your intentions godly, so I hope you trust me. But we're both flawed.

If you don't want to talk that's fine..

I don't like the girl. I could see why you would get upset when you hear about it, but when I asked if anything was bothering you.. WHEN I SURE AS HECK COULD TELL THERE WAS SOMETHING.. you said no.

I need truth, cause that's what I give you. I'm sorry if it seems that I don't.

NMW, I know you'll always be there.. so please.. just trust me. I'm not stupid..

Visual Pun for 6th Period.

Fruit Punch.

Yay.

It's good to hear that you had a good day. It sucks how your mom still gets mad, even though you didn't do anything! Man.. I see how much needs to change.. You're always in my prayers.

But yeah, my week. Wasn't so bad. (: I'm able to concentrate on my priorities and stuff.

Prayer night was amazing.. I can't wait till the day you go to LOL on thursday. Which may take a while.. But yeah. The night was amazing. More peeps are going to youth. (: More cool people to meet, yay. Pretty much I gave it all to pray for everything. We had stations: the homeless, the US, family, school, friends, and each other. As a group of 6, we had to rotate throughout these stations and pray. The purpose was to help us be more comfortable to pray out loud, for the new people. Along with the purpose of praying, and entrusting God to do what he has to do.

But yeah, our group didn't hold back.. I didn't hold back, whatever was on my mind.. I prayed for everything, and was so thankful for everything.

When it came time for prayer requests, I told our group our situation, and people were all like, "Oh I'm sorry Tim." There was nothing to be sorry for really, I was completely fine. (: But when I prayed, for you.. I almost cried.. Haha. I never thought in my life that I would.

But anyways. I'm happy you're going to spend the weekend at.. that place you're going. Haha, I forgot what it's called. But a weekend, and a free Saturday in Santa Barbara? Dope indeed.

Why didn't you want to look at a thrift store? IMO you could find what you want for a good price!

But yeah, also with this week. I miss you, and things affiliated and related to you. I miss the texts and calls. The voice and the comfort. I plan to re-read your notes someday.

But God gets us to get out of our comfort zone, to live for Him.

I'm going to Calvary Chapel to help out their Harvest Festival, with LOL. I remember I used to go there when I was a kid, and frankly, it was way more the cat's pajamas there than trick-or-treating. Lots of candy, lots of things to do, you can even rock climb! Haha. But yay for community service for 12 hours! And another time for LOL. (:

"Man.. my day today was up and down.. lol This morning was cool.."

^^^^^

Sorry, you forgot a period, and sorry I have to be grammer police up on you. It hurt to read this! Jk. (:

Well I'm just going to keep hanging in there, and I know you are right now. (:

NMW.

Peace!

I guess

now's the time to really, actually, truly, completely, whole-heartedly,

let go. And let God.

Letting go of all the experiences, memories, pain, pleasures that I cherished and enjoyed. So much that I miss, and am going to miss. But am I worried? Worried about what's going to happen now? To her? To me?

I was worried. But I learned that being worried is pointless, and it'll only hold me down.

"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself..." - Matthew 6:31-34

I now don't need to worry about my future.. our future. Whom I'll be paired up with in the future. Because His kingdom, heaven, is my only concern. (: And everything else will be given to me by God.

Really.

Letting go is the hard part.. But the moment I let go, and obey and trust God completely, my life is in His hands, and I'll receive what He wants to give me. A new friend? A new car? Haha, kidding. But whatever He has in store for me, I'll take it, even if it's you or it isn't you.

As you said, this is the time to remodel, re-do our hearts. I've always told you I loved you. As you said, this time I need to redirect my love to God, and follow his command, to loving everyone, as myself. Including you, including everyone else. As you said, I need to love my parents, to the realization that they're the closest people I'll have closest to God. The people God selected to raise me, work hard for me, and bless me with.

I only have 1 1/2 years if God grants me the achievement of going to UCSD, or whatever college I'm headed to. 3/2 years to make the most amount of time I can with my family, my church, and my friends. 3/2 years to obey my parents good times and bad. 3/2 years to make the most of my time for God, before I head out on my own.

For you, I hope you're doing okay. This is a great opportunity for us to strengthen our faith, in every way possible.

I'm truly sorry. For not taking initiative, and not decided earlier, before your what happened with your mom, and your phone. Although I don't know the full incident. I'm terribly sorry for your DS, you didn't deserve it getting lost.

On that topic, I have things to give to you.

You're my best friend. (: Through our good times and bad, mostly great. But God wasn't my best friend. He was there, I still acknowledged Him, but I couldn't take the decision, when he kept knocking into my heart, saying, "Tim, I want to give you so much more than this. Don't let her get in the way with Me." I did let you go in the way most of the time, if not all.

To all the people reading this, I'm not religious. I don't just say things to earn brownie points with my God. I just want my relationship with Him, stronger.

This time, I'm going to let go, and let God, yeah? He's got this, not me. I'm imperfect.. I can't handle my relationships and situations. I'm only human, like everyone else. I need an everlasting, unconditional love.

All I ask are for your prayers.. (: Know I'll be fine.

How to receive God's blessings for us.

I learned alot this weekend.. Lately, I haven't been giving my best, my all, my life for Him, and today, the message by Kuya Marlon was about how God provides everything for us. Yes, as humans, we do say that God is our provider, but do we live it?

I comprehended that God will provide the right things, at the right time and the right place.

And how to receive what God wants us to receive, a life full of abundance, is through this:

- Obeying God completely.

"God blesses those who obey Him." - Proverbs 16:20

- Trusting God completely.

"...I will rescue those who love Me. I will protect those who trust in My name" - Psalm 91:14

- Letting go of things that hinder your relationship with Him completely. This is the most difficult to do of the three. It's hard to let go of an addiction, a relationship, a habit, a passion, etc. and give it to God. But ultimately, we'll be blessed.

"If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for Me, you will find it." - Matthew 10:39

"God will provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others." - 2 Corinthians 9:8

There was alot I had to let go in order to put God first.. It was hard, but I know that God will provide everything I need.

She's ignoring me

because I want what's the absolute best for her, because I want what God wants for her..

Please, Lord, give me patience..

Circles, Shapes, Patterns Assignment

Nature:

Man-made:

Just a quick tangent

from the grotesque amount of homework.

Today, as I talked to Nick about HiJinx Jam this saturday, because I wanted to try and go instead of going to the wedding, he said that there was space for me. Then I realized it was only Nick, and maybe John from Artistics that are going.

This struck my thoughts.. honestly, AT hasn't been as committed to bboying/getting better as we were before. I mean, compared to alot of high schoolers, I guess you could say we're at a good level.

But I've noticed that people don't practice as much, or aren't in love with this form of art as they were before. That kinda made me sad.

We could've been alot better as a crew if we were more committed to bboying. Although me and John don't get to stay in contact as much as everyone else in AT because we go to Chap, I've noticed alot of interferences with the lives of our crew members. I'm assuming school, social life, girlfriend, and sometimes meaningless things take us away from what they love to do the most.

That's fine, but let's not forget why we're doing this dance..

As I constantly look up all these devoted crews, I see how much like Rock So Fresh, Miles of Styles, or whomever, they are like a family. They all have the same cause of why they're bboying, what keeps them going, and what keeps getting them better. I envy that.. I really wanted this crew to constantly strive for our best.

Freaking RSF started to change their practices to a park, on concrete. The reason they get down on concrete now is so that they'll hit their footwork harder when it comes to nice wood floor at jams. They don't want to spoil themselves with practicing at nice studio floors all the time.

Miles of Styles practices everyday in a gym after school almost every day for like 3 hours. Sure, some of them aren't the best, but I could see the love for bboying. And they're our age too..

Wow, that shows alot of passion, in my eyes.

I just wish we have a great level of passion too.. it seems like me, Nick, and John are the only ones that actually care about bboying now. As for everyone else, it's sketchy to say.

That's why I wanted Kris in AT. Not riding his jock or anything, but although he acts like a know it all at times, he's both devoted and well educated in bboying itself. His love for it is there, obvious to see. Sadly, no one really supports my idea for Kris being in Artistics Tribe, they all focus on his negativity..

I mean, yeah you put Artistics Tribe on your Myspace/Facebook, and you represent it, but are you actually in it for the rep, or for the love?

At least Bboy Feud, Rival Schools, and Who Rules the Schools 3 is around the corner for us to get motivated.

I hope things turn out well for us. I hope the love of the bboy culture is still aflame. I still have love for this crew.

Water Photography (Internet)

Water Photography (Originals)

All for Digital Photography class, might be crappy since I procrastinated.

To my fellow crew mates.

Since it's been a year since we've been a crew, I'd like to pour down my thoughts.

Today made me think about how we started, all from an idea that me and John followed through. Combining with Vista Kids. We talked to Mike and Rem, and started sessioning at Mikes, and eventually came up with a tryout date.

The people who made it were Nick, Tyler, Sean, Bryan, Leo, Jon, Marvin, and even Jeff Akira. I don't know why he tried out. But since Marvin lived so far away, and Jeff had to commit to DOTposse and 3D, we ended up being me, John, Mike, Rem, Nick, Tyler, Sean, Bryan, Leo, and Jon.

Although me and John don't get to practice with everyone else from Vista as much, we always pulled it together when it came to competing at a numerous jams. This year, we've gotten better as bboys, and as a crew.

From practices at Mikes house, to everyone making it to the next round at 3 Kings, there's too much to say.

Who Rules the Schools was the jam that brought us together the most, even though we all messed up in the final.

But yeah, I'm thankful to be in a growing/young crew. Pulling together our efforts to battle jam after jam and doing our best, with everyone having completely different styles.

I guess a good goal right now is to get majority to drive, so we can head out to jams more. Along with getting better, earning more rep around the SoCal bboy scene.

Yeah, go Artistics Tribe.

More than saying sorry.

Forgiveness. Should you forgive, but not forget? Or forgive, and forget? Which is the better way?

Lately, I've seen people, including myself, struggling in this aspect of life, due to relationship conflicts, or whatever it might be. This may not be appealing to your ears, but it's what He wants us to learn, because He wants what's best for us. A loving, just God, not a punishing God.

It is not human nature to forgive others, because we tend to want to repay bad with bad, not bad with good. If someone does wrongdoing onto you, like lies, steals, or ignores you, it would be natural to let anger and hate take control. But forgiveness, it's a decision.

Ephesians 4:32. Since God forgave us, we should forgive others. He still loves us, which is why we should still love others.

Sometimes, the offender may not even want forgiveness. But it is still right to forgive.




It is impossible to forget what someone has done to you, you cannot merely "erase" that from our memory.

However, God is all-knowing. Romans 3:23, we have all sinned and fall short to the glory of God. Even though He knows we've done all this bad stuff, He treats us as if the sin has never occurred.

Something we can all do, right? The "forget" term of the phrase, "forgive and forget", is to treat the offender as if they never did that to us. We choose to forget.. Since Big Guns Upstairs chose to treat us as if we never sinned to Him.

Therefore, if we forgive someone, we must act as if that sin had never occurred. We remember the sin, but we live as if we did not remember it. We do not use someone's past against them, or else, that is not true forgiveness.

Something I thought I'd share. (:

Self-Control

of the tounge. God's words shared through Pastor at CCBC's service today. Something that I need to apply to myself, as I'm sure many need to too.

Self-control is a part of the fruit of the spirit. Galatians 5:22-23 The Fruit of the Spirit are the characteristics God desires for you to have once you trust Him with every aspect of your life. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

I don't wanna be a fake, "Sunday-only Christian" that acts like I know God on Sundays, yet my everyday life reflects an opposition to that. That's my prayer..

Summing the message today down to 4 points (Self-control of your mouth):

1) Think before you speak
2) Always speak the truth
3) Speak the truth in love
4) Ask God for help everyday

Regarding the 1st point on thinking, ask yourselves these questions before you say something:

Is it Truthful?
Is it Helpful?
Is it Inspirational?
Is it Necessary?
Is it Kind?

Just something I thought I'd share.

Christianity, it's beautiful on how we don't center our faith on "religion", going through motions, doing this doing that, just cause I can get "points" with God. Nah dawg, it's a relationship, with our Jesus Christ, doing as much as we can to glorify Him, because he has a perfect will for every one of us.

A Test of Faith.

God just showed me an epiphany. Although, some of the realization isn't so sudden.

How it started was that I went to World of Dance yesterday, missing the event of REVOlution. Twas a good day perhaps, battles, cyhpers, just vibing in the SD bboy scene, meeting others, exploring the epicenter, and representing your crews to the fullest. A complete 9 hours of such.

Jenni called me in the morning, but I was just so sleepy, in which I apologize.

"When someone corrects you, be teachable, not unreachable." That's what I got most out of Pastor Romy's words today.

After a service of CCBC, learning about being gentle, and slow to anger, I was getting alot of attention from the youth, "Oh how was it? How'd you guys do?" Blah, blah. Sure all this attention is nice. And so I told them about it. Although me and a good friend Christian talked about how the jam went, he gave me some deep words. It began with

"Yeah me and you-know-who were talking about you for like an hour."

And so I asked for some elaboration. Before I left church, he told me.

"She wasn't mad at you. Just realized how your faith was tested, in which where would God want you to go. World of Dance.. or REVO."

Those weren't the exact words, but that's how it translated in my mind.

Where would God want me to go? I mean sure, World of Dance is once in a lifetime, I can't let the crew down, I could be a light there, show them how God is working in my life through the way I act. And so I thought that, just so I could avoid the guilt of where God would really want me to go.

REVOlution.

Those stupid thoughts of, "Oh I can always go to REVO any month. World of Dance doesn't happen everyday." Sure that's true, but what's the bigger question is, "Which one of REVO or WOD benefit me eternally?"

Simply just going there and doing the motions won't affect me, but my decisions for God are far more important.

God, I'm sorry for letting you down. But thanks to your love, I now have the opportunities to glorify you, in all that I do.

Thanks for Jennifer Bugarin, my spiritual life would never be the same without her. I even recall me telling her, "Jen, we should focus on what's eternal, more than what's temporary." And now she simply just told me the same thing.

I need your guys' prayer.

I agree with Monica.

Due to the massive hype over getting a tumblr, so many people have one.

You can't put stuff on Tumblr without being judged, or talked crap about. Hooray!

Crazy Legs of Rocksteady Crew. For class.

For class.

Well in a jiffy.

LOL blogging in class is win.

I finished filling out a club charter for starting a bboy club at Chaparral. At first, I thought it was just something little, but now. I have to be president. -__- Haha. John’s the VP, and yeah, I guess the goal is to teach/educate people about the beauty of bboy culture, as well as being able to session with bboys at school. Cause I’m highly anticipating nub and ignorant ABDC d-rider move-by-move bboys that show up and just wanna learn flares.

Apparently, I guess the first thing I would ask everyone to do is watch the Freshest Kids. And gain the knowledge of how bboying started, what the foundation was, Rock Steady and the Bronx, all that steez. And why it’s called bboying, not breakdancing. And exposing them to the power of YouTube, Bboyworld, Morethanastance, to stay inspired/educated, as well as being able to go to jams and stay away from becoming an online trash talker e-boy.

And turning their virgin ears into appreciating the music.

I feel weird blogging about this. But yeah. I just have high hopes for this. Hopefully we’ll be able to manage our budget and stuff, along with getting meetings/sessions every other week at lunch. Mrs. Brooks is the advisor, but she doesn’t really like bboying, and when November Show and Dance Production comes along, she’ll be really lame for letting us use the dance room.

Performances, eh. Maybe have a cypher showcase in Dance Production or something.

But yeah, excited for getting this shindig started.

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