Visual Pun for 6th Period.

Fruit Punch.

Yay.

It's good to hear that you had a good day. It sucks how your mom still gets mad, even though you didn't do anything! Man.. I see how much needs to change.. You're always in my prayers.

But yeah, my week. Wasn't so bad. (: I'm able to concentrate on my priorities and stuff.

Prayer night was amazing.. I can't wait till the day you go to LOL on thursday. Which may take a while.. But yeah. The night was amazing. More peeps are going to youth. (: More cool people to meet, yay. Pretty much I gave it all to pray for everything. We had stations: the homeless, the US, family, school, friends, and each other. As a group of 6, we had to rotate throughout these stations and pray. The purpose was to help us be more comfortable to pray out loud, for the new people. Along with the purpose of praying, and entrusting God to do what he has to do.

But yeah, our group didn't hold back.. I didn't hold back, whatever was on my mind.. I prayed for everything, and was so thankful for everything.

When it came time for prayer requests, I told our group our situation, and people were all like, "Oh I'm sorry Tim." There was nothing to be sorry for really, I was completely fine. (: But when I prayed, for you.. I almost cried.. Haha. I never thought in my life that I would.

But anyways. I'm happy you're going to spend the weekend at.. that place you're going. Haha, I forgot what it's called. But a weekend, and a free Saturday in Santa Barbara? Dope indeed.

Why didn't you want to look at a thrift store? IMO you could find what you want for a good price!

But yeah, also with this week. I miss you, and things affiliated and related to you. I miss the texts and calls. The voice and the comfort. I plan to re-read your notes someday.

But God gets us to get out of our comfort zone, to live for Him.

I'm going to Calvary Chapel to help out their Harvest Festival, with LOL. I remember I used to go there when I was a kid, and frankly, it was way more the cat's pajamas there than trick-or-treating. Lots of candy, lots of things to do, you can even rock climb! Haha. But yay for community service for 12 hours! And another time for LOL. (:

"Man.. my day today was up and down.. lol This morning was cool.."

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Sorry, you forgot a period, and sorry I have to be grammer police up on you. It hurt to read this! Jk. (:

Well I'm just going to keep hanging in there, and I know you are right now. (:

NMW.

Peace!

I guess

now's the time to really, actually, truly, completely, whole-heartedly,

let go. And let God.

Letting go of all the experiences, memories, pain, pleasures that I cherished and enjoyed. So much that I miss, and am going to miss. But am I worried? Worried about what's going to happen now? To her? To me?

I was worried. But I learned that being worried is pointless, and it'll only hold me down.

"So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself..." - Matthew 6:31-34

I now don't need to worry about my future.. our future. Whom I'll be paired up with in the future. Because His kingdom, heaven, is my only concern. (: And everything else will be given to me by God.

Really.

Letting go is the hard part.. But the moment I let go, and obey and trust God completely, my life is in His hands, and I'll receive what He wants to give me. A new friend? A new car? Haha, kidding. But whatever He has in store for me, I'll take it, even if it's you or it isn't you.

As you said, this is the time to remodel, re-do our hearts. I've always told you I loved you. As you said, this time I need to redirect my love to God, and follow his command, to loving everyone, as myself. Including you, including everyone else. As you said, I need to love my parents, to the realization that they're the closest people I'll have closest to God. The people God selected to raise me, work hard for me, and bless me with.

I only have 1 1/2 years if God grants me the achievement of going to UCSD, or whatever college I'm headed to. 3/2 years to make the most amount of time I can with my family, my church, and my friends. 3/2 years to obey my parents good times and bad. 3/2 years to make the most of my time for God, before I head out on my own.

For you, I hope you're doing okay. This is a great opportunity for us to strengthen our faith, in every way possible.

I'm truly sorry. For not taking initiative, and not decided earlier, before your what happened with your mom, and your phone. Although I don't know the full incident. I'm terribly sorry for your DS, you didn't deserve it getting lost.

On that topic, I have things to give to you.

You're my best friend. (: Through our good times and bad, mostly great. But God wasn't my best friend. He was there, I still acknowledged Him, but I couldn't take the decision, when he kept knocking into my heart, saying, "Tim, I want to give you so much more than this. Don't let her get in the way with Me." I did let you go in the way most of the time, if not all.

To all the people reading this, I'm not religious. I don't just say things to earn brownie points with my God. I just want my relationship with Him, stronger.

This time, I'm going to let go, and let God, yeah? He's got this, not me. I'm imperfect.. I can't handle my relationships and situations. I'm only human, like everyone else. I need an everlasting, unconditional love.

All I ask are for your prayers.. (: Know I'll be fine.

How to receive God's blessings for us.

I learned alot this weekend.. Lately, I haven't been giving my best, my all, my life for Him, and today, the message by Kuya Marlon was about how God provides everything for us. Yes, as humans, we do say that God is our provider, but do we live it?

I comprehended that God will provide the right things, at the right time and the right place.

And how to receive what God wants us to receive, a life full of abundance, is through this:

- Obeying God completely.

"God blesses those who obey Him." - Proverbs 16:20

- Trusting God completely.

"...I will rescue those who love Me. I will protect those who trust in My name" - Psalm 91:14

- Letting go of things that hinder your relationship with Him completely. This is the most difficult to do of the three. It's hard to let go of an addiction, a relationship, a habit, a passion, etc. and give it to God. But ultimately, we'll be blessed.

"If you cling to your life, you will lose it; but if you give up your life for Me, you will find it." - Matthew 10:39

"God will provide all you need. Then you will always have everything you need and plenty left over to share with others." - 2 Corinthians 9:8

There was alot I had to let go in order to put God first.. It was hard, but I know that God will provide everything I need.

She's ignoring me

because I want what's the absolute best for her, because I want what God wants for her..

Please, Lord, give me patience..