The secret isn’t simply to fall in love.. but to persist is love.. everyone has troubles, everyone makes mistakes, but real love finds a way.. that’s how you know..

Pretty sad

to see that you're not on the left side of my Facebook where my friends are. Usually when I go on my profile it shows you, because Facebook knows I always talk to you. But ever since I've stopped talking to you, you've finally disappeared from my friends on the left side of my profile. Even Facebook knows we're not talking. Ha.

Blog Dat.

Yes. Nice to know you're doing good and meeting friends in college. Yay. And that you went to a church. That was cool! But yes. I hope you maintain that willingness to be independent and not always seeking for attention. That too, sometimes you seek attention from different places. But it's okay. We all do that.

That's good you were there for Avo. But let's hope he wasn't trying to replace his girlfriend with you at the time, plus I wouldn't know if you guys were in his dorm alone. That's a bothering thought. :| I hope you maintain your limits and integrity. I know he's a good friend and such, but there's still gotta be limits if you want to continually repent and do the Word of God. I hope you find those limits.

But yes. Thanks for calling me today and letting me know. I wished I got to talk to you more but everyone was at my house watching The Walking Dead. We all went to my house after club rush. Jay slept over last night haha. We didn't even sleep til 6. Good stuff.

Being nice, I know I guess can be stumbling. Yes it can give girls the attention they want. But that is never my intention. My intention is to just always build a friendship, and continue building that friendship. And hopefully show them how a follower of Christ lives.

Anyway, thanks for calling. What a relief. I actually texted my dad that you got your period because he's really worried and he thinks the pull-out/withdrawal method does not work, haha. He didn't say anything back. But he never does.

Alright. I really want to go to school already. I'm already planning on hanging out with so many different people I met at orientation and in the dorms/hallways I was assigned in. And the Temecula people that are going to Irvine. Regine and my friend Saya got the same floor in the same hall in the same dorm. Haha, oh the odds.

I'm pretty happy with the dorm I'm in. I got Mesa Court, which is the better/nicer dorm option than Middle Earth. My hallway (building) is a Performing Arts Hall called Prado. It's cool because each hall in Mesa Court has a theme. I think you'd like living in this hall, you love performing, whether it's singing, dancing, or acting. But yeah. At least they have a dance room which is cool. But one of their rooms on the second floor is haunted, there's a famous story that runs around the city of Trvine about the ghost story of Prado in UCI.

I got a single room, as oppposed to a double, or a triple. I kind of wanted to have a roommate, so I can meet someone new, but I honestly don't mind having a single room. I can be less distracted. And you can even drive up here and just sleep over in my dorm room without any worries of my roommate. Haha, just kidding about the sleeping over part. But yesh, single living shall be interesting! Dorm life too.

But yes! Hang in there. I love you Jen. God is still molding us.

Something I learned at YABS today.. or relearned:

Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down. The streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who builds his house on sand. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.
Matthew 7:24-27

We must put into practice what we learned. This has always been a constant, even though my church teaches and emphasizes practicality instead of theology for the most part. I always know the Word of God, but sometimes I'm just stagnant to do the Word of God. Yes, maybe I do in some parts, like love. But in other parts, like being honest with my parents or forgiving others, or not holding grudges, or just going the extra mile for someone, or just turning the other cheek. I know all of this. But sometimes I don't do.

The beautiful thing about Jesus's teachings, especially on the Sermon on the Mount, is that it was different than the teaching of the Pharisees back in the day. The way Jesus taught, yes, He did teach on knowledge and knowing the Word of God, but also He took the further step and encouraged applying what you learn, and living the Word. In every way possible. We learn so many rules and doctrines of the Word, but it really can be summed up in one thing. Love. If we love, we wouldn't commit adultury, fornication, we would honor our parents, and so on.

It's just a great reminder that we'll have a strong foundation in our life if we do God's Word, and live His story.

Dependency.

I have too much time on my hands. Well I'll try blogging more often. I'll probably blog more in mini-blogs rather than long ones cause my brain can't hold that many thoughts. Haha.

I'm watching season one of The Walking Dead right now. It's a popular new series that a lot of people I know have seen, and it's about zombies. I never watch anything zombie-related and Loren lent me the first season of it.

But yeah. I hope you're doing okay. It sounds like you are. I'm just sad to hear about your back or your headaches.. but yeah. I really wish I can do something to help, like drive down and bring you medicine or food or something.

One big thing I remember though when I talked to your sister. Your sister told me something, that you are very dependent on people. And I noticed that, a lot. It's true. You depend on your sister a lot.. or others to give you rides or pay for your food or whatever. Nothing bad about that. You depended on me a lot, and a lot of times I let you down.. But that's the past. For example, when you let yourself drink because you were with older people who were drinking. Or when you had sex and thought it was okay, because I was okay with it (I admit, I failed that too).

Don't worry, I'm way past those mistakes. I fail too.

To be honest, there's nothing wrong with being dependent on others. But one thing that would be cool is to just to be independent sometimes. Depend on God alone, and not resort to people sometimes. I mean it's good to depend on others, but it's also good to be independent. Personally, I think it's an attractive character trait when a girl is independent. Like when Jackie would go to Antioch by herself even when her sisters would not go with her. I could also tell Raelene is independent too.

Of course there is a such thing as being too independent, and disregarding other people. But that's not what I'm trying to get at. What I'm trying to say is, try and develop the habit of initiating decisions on your own. If you know it's wrong, then choose not to do it, even if others around you are. Cliche as heck, but true. If God put a choice in your heart, make that choice and don't let others make that choice for you.

And keep being honest to your parents. I could tell when they sat down with us and they were asking you why you drove up to Temecula, you told them that, "You wanted to help a friend out by giving him a ride." You never said that you headed up here because you wanted to see me... well, not 'til the very end after the bajillionth time your mom asked you why you went to Temecula. But yeah, we both knew that was the main reason you wanted to come up here that day. But don't worry, it's something I've been definitely working on too.

But yeah! Keep doing your thing in college. Make friends. Do well. Heal up. Try working on making decisions on your own. (: I know you can establish that habit, with God on your side.

I miss you.