A Test of Faith.

God just showed me an epiphany. Although, some of the realization isn't so sudden.

How it started was that I went to World of Dance yesterday, missing the event of REVOlution. Twas a good day perhaps, battles, cyhpers, just vibing in the SD bboy scene, meeting others, exploring the epicenter, and representing your crews to the fullest. A complete 9 hours of such.

Jenni called me in the morning, but I was just so sleepy, in which I apologize.

"When someone corrects you, be teachable, not unreachable." That's what I got most out of Pastor Romy's words today.

After a service of CCBC, learning about being gentle, and slow to anger, I was getting alot of attention from the youth, "Oh how was it? How'd you guys do?" Blah, blah. Sure all this attention is nice. And so I told them about it. Although me and a good friend Christian talked about how the jam went, he gave me some deep words. It began with

"Yeah me and you-know-who were talking about you for like an hour."

And so I asked for some elaboration. Before I left church, he told me.

"She wasn't mad at you. Just realized how your faith was tested, in which where would God want you to go. World of Dance.. or REVO."

Those weren't the exact words, but that's how it translated in my mind.

Where would God want me to go? I mean sure, World of Dance is once in a lifetime, I can't let the crew down, I could be a light there, show them how God is working in my life through the way I act. And so I thought that, just so I could avoid the guilt of where God would really want me to go.

REVOlution.

Those stupid thoughts of, "Oh I can always go to REVO any month. World of Dance doesn't happen everyday." Sure that's true, but what's the bigger question is, "Which one of REVO or WOD benefit me eternally?"

Simply just going there and doing the motions won't affect me, but my decisions for God are far more important.

God, I'm sorry for letting you down. But thanks to your love, I now have the opportunities to glorify you, in all that I do.

Thanks for Jennifer Bugarin, my spiritual life would never be the same without her. I even recall me telling her, "Jen, we should focus on what's eternal, more than what's temporary." And now she simply just told me the same thing.

I need your guys' prayer.