Waiting Game.

Dear friend,

I have been inspired to write Perks of Being a Wallflower journal entry style. Its one of my favorite books.

I feel really bad that I rarely update this thing, but I like checking it to see what she posts. It's always nice to reread something heartwarming and directed towards me. I just feel bad that I just don't have the time to write all the time.

I like the way we're just comfortable with each other. Like we can talk about anything. I like the way we genuinely love each other. Yes, we have our corny cute moments, moments I enjoy, but I truly love the way we're willing to be patient for us. Because right now just is not the time, she's got to look for a job, get better grades, and be trustworthy towards her family, while I just have to look for a job too and pay off my ticket. (NTS: Never get a ticket again)

But yes, I have had plenty of enjoyable moments with her lately. Some moments that I feel guilty about when I rethink it in my head again, and when I think of possible things that could have happened if moments lasted longer. And other moments that just make me happy to rethink. But I always remind her and myself, as she reminds me and herself, that we have to wait. To wait for God's Will, whether we end up together or not. Cause love is patient. (1 Cor. 13:4) Love is willing to wait for the right time. And not just wait, but plan.

And I plan to marry her one day. That's if, God's willing me to. I just need to continually communicate with Him to ask what He wants for me.

But yes, I love the way she smiles. The way she talks. The way she acts like me. The way she smells. The way her lips meet mine. The way she talks about Kingdom Hearts. The way she looks at me when we're close. The way she sings. Cliche stuff. Man its been 2 years.

Honestly, she was one of my inspirations to start singing 6 months ago.

But again, its just the time to wait for her. And to focus our time on God and the opportunities given to us right now. And I'm not worried, cause trust in God and trust in her gives me no reason whatsoever to worry. I love her. Thanks God.

With love,
Tim.