The thing is...

I really did want to show emotion. I really did. But my better self knew that I should not have sparked emotions again. I knew I should not have talked to you. We can't do that. But yet I did. As I saw us both online on Facebook and ooVoo for hours, and we haven't said a word.. I was really tempted to IM you.

I'm sorry Jen, I'm sorry if it seemed emotionless when I talked to you. I was struggling. At the moment, I knew I should not be talking to you. And yet I was. I just wanted to ask a question. I didn't want to rekindle any emotions between us. Plus it's just words behind a computer screen...

I really am sorry. The thing to me was we should not have been talking in the first place, I should not have IM'ed you in the first place. Sorry for your feelings being toyed..