Yes, I was confused with feelings for a bit. Yes, I said it's stupid to act on something based on your impulse/emotions alone (with no reason). BUT I DID NOT ACT ON MY FEELINGS. At all.

Yes, I was confused with my feelings. I can't help them. But I set it straight. I didn't act on it. I stopped creating those situations where those feelings could happen. Because in the end, I know it's not God's Will for me to do that at this time in my life.

Because I didn't act on my feelings, there's nothing I'm hiding from you. I'M NOT HIDING ANYTHING. There's nothing I "chose" not to tell you. It's not like I'm choosing to have sex or kiss girls all the time. Cause I'm not. I'm being brutally honest.

But I do apologize. For pushing you aside, and treating you as if you'll always be there for me. I don't try to please everyone, really. I am praying for my character to grow. Lately I know God wants me to change my ways in college. So thanks for calling me out on that. I do know that people fail me and God doesn't.

I am sorry. Really I am. Just stop condemning me now, please. I know we deserve God's best when we seek Him. But stop acting like I'm the one for your faults. Stop putting a load of the blame on me. It's both of our faults.